My head is a box filled with nothing.

Detour!

Wed, 27 May 2009 06:32:14 GMT

Redirect to my Tumblr.

I'm keeping this LJ to read over things that I've blogged about, but it's not going to be active.

Another year bites the dust!

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 23:52:42 GMT

Omg I seriously haven't posted for all of December....sorry! Just here with some New Year's Resolutions! I need some this year.

Here goes:

Eat all of my carrots when I have them.
Listen more, talk less.
Stop cursing so much in public
Be less OCD...let the "little things" go.
No regrets!

Wish me luck! :D

Long time no blog.

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 23:24:12 GMT

So I haven't posted an entry for a while now. I've been pretty busy trying to keep up with schoolwork and whatnot. Joyce has gotten me addicted to Badminton so I've been playing in my spare time instead of being on my computer hahah. I just got back from an exam 20 min ago in my California Geography class. I feel like I did pretty well on it after a crapload of studying. Now I have to write a paper for that class too :( I have a paper due in Linguistics at the beginning of December. I think I'm gonna write about the advantages and disadvantages of being bilingual, even though I know everyone's going to choose that topic. I did well on all of my midterms, with the exception of my African American Studies class, because it involved essay writing in a short amount of time. I really need to work on my writing skills. It was inspiring to be in that class during the election, though. My first voting experience was great, I felt proud :) Still sad about Prop 8, but still an eventful night.

Not much has been going on lately. I was back in SF this past weekend and went crazy at Target. Got me some cute sock monkey slippers :D Got a cute pink wireless mouse that is SOO much better than the stupid touchpad on my laptop. It didn't have a scrolling function. Lame. I also got the leather (or pleather, w/e) looking biker jacket that I've wanted for so long. I feel daring when I wear it haha. That's a good piece of clothing, one that makes you feel good.

I think nothing much has been going on in my life lately, and it's a nice change from how it used to be (specifically during the summer, when everything was just so hectic and draining). Everytime I'm back in SF it kind of reminds me of how it used to be, it's bittersweet. On the one hand I get to see people that I miss talking to, yet on the other hand things just come rushing back. I don't know how to feel about it. I'm really tired now so I'm gonna go take a nap. I like that, that I can take a nap when I want to without feeling like I should be doing something. I know what I need to do, and I know when I need to do it. I am responsible for my own actions. I am in control.

P.S. LOLs (but not really) about people being trampled and injured lining up to get wristbands for the Rob Pattinson t-shirt signing. I mean I'm obsessed with Twilight and everything, but I don't like people touching me and therefore hate crowds. Ugh. I shall oogle from a distance.

18 years is a long time.

Thu, 23 Oct 2008 07:44:19 GMT

So it's the big one eight.

I like that it wasn't a big deal. I don't feel like it's a big deal. Just the usual junk, I can go to clubs (which I despise btw) and get ciggs (which are disgusting) and buy porn (which is equally disgusting). I think not making a big thing out of your birthday keeps you grounded. If people want to celebrate their birthdays just for gifts and attention, that's lame. You should feel different (perhaps better) about yourself rather than hope people will see you differently now that you're "grown up."

I have conflicting thoughts going on in my head lately. On the one hand, I feel like I made the right choice when I chose to come to Davis. I absolutely looove the quiet and all of the flora and fauna here. I feel natural and bohemian lol. I live for walks to class in the afternoon sun. I also love walking at night, listening to bikes whizz by and being able to see the stars clearly at night. I love being in my room alone, watching tv and relaxing. I don't always feel the need to be doing something. Just enjoying the simple pleasures of life. On the other hand, I feel like I'm wasting my time and should be more proactive. I feel like I should be joining a club or at least meeting people or partying or something. I just don't know what it is that I ought to be doing. I'm just worrying too much.

School is going fine. Classes are fairly enjoyable. I just had my first exam on Monday and I got an A :) But I shouldn't be overconfident because the test was actually pretty easy. The professor didn't think it was easy but I guess her other students just didn't study or something. I have one midterm today and another tomorrow. Gross. I can't wait for this week to be over. Knowing that I won't be back in SF until Halloween is killing me. There are some (actually, many) reasons why I am completely glad that I'm away and some reasons that make me want to just cut class and go back now. There are so many conflicting feelings in my life right now. It's confusing. I don't like being confused. I'm too OCD for that shit. I like to have a plan and know what I'm doing.

I don't know what I should do. What I should be doing.

Peace at last

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 20:51:24 GMT

I feel as if I am settling into college life quite nicely. I think this is the type of thing that I needed from the beginning. In a way, it was exactly what I'd been hoping for when I thought of college. I'm a pretty low-key person. I don't need to go to clubs or go out every single night to be happy. I'm fine with staying in with a good book or watching my favorite TV shows with people who are equally as obsessed. So lately not much has been going on. Some would say it has been boring, but I am thriving. After 18 years of living in a house full of loud cousins and aunts and various other extended family members, a little peace and quiet is greatly appreciated.

I am not a morning person so my afternoon classes suit me perfectly. I wake up earlier than I need to and get some things done before I even have class. I have yet to explore the whole campus, but so far I have been pleasantly surprised by what I have found. I really want to go to the crafts center and look around or play some bowling at the M.U. Classes have been good. Linguistics is quickly becoming one of my favorite classes. I wonder what type of career a person would have with a Linguistics degree. Things to ponder. Statistics is ok for now, although sometimes I feel as if my professor has no idea what he's doing. Here's hoping the discussion section is a good one. I'm really nervous, however, about the impending doom that is midterms and finals and term papers, etc. It all is really quite intimidating. I believe that I am organized enough to handle everything, but I can't say for sure until I've experienced it. My study habits are good lately, I've been getting in a lot of reading time.

I should wrap this up soon, I have to bike off to class! I loooooove biking, it's so refreshing and easy. Although it is rush hour right about now, I should get an early start. I'll update again later. Toodles :)

Davis, forreal this time.

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 02:05:29 GMT

Today was my first day of class and it wasn't all too much. So the one class I had today was African American Studies. I didn't realize there were that many African Americans at Davis :X I mean not to be racist or anything but yeah lately all the people I've been around have been white or something that's not Asian or black. So yeah. Well I mean like around the dorm building and the dining common and such. Or perhaps I'm just not paying attention to them or something. But yeah the class was fine, my professor seems like a really reasonable and fun guy. I'm a little paranoid about my writing skills though cause what if I fucking suck at writing ahhhhhh. I'll try to get some people to help me edit it and stuff like that.

I am totally falling in love with biking now. Well biking in Davis that is. Biking in SF sucks because I'm always scared that I'm gonna run into someone or get run over by a car or something. But here bikes have the right of way so it's not that easy to get into an accident although I'm still not completely used to all the bike etiquette and whatnot. I'm working on learning how to signal properly, which is hard for me now because I still need to work on biking with one hand and stuff. Anyhoo, night biking here is glorious. It's never too cold at night to go for a bike ride, whereas in SF it's freeeeezing at night. The days here are horrendously hot, but the nights are lovely.

I just bought my books today using money that I earned working a job I had for the past year and a half. It felt horrible. I spent so much time earning that money and $300 was suddenly just gone. Ugh I'm going to love the day I sell the books back to the bookstore. What a gip they are! That's my stupid fault for not asking the professor about what books we're using and ordering it beforehand on Amazon or whatever. Well that's the nature of college life for ya ey?

Not much else has been going on, I've just been visiting people in their respective dorms, going out for lunch/dinners with friends and generally exploring the Davis area. Today was the first time that I went biking during a full day where all the students are at school and it is significantly different. So much more traffic and a lot scarier/nerve-wracking. But it was a good learning experience today. Tomorrow's going to suck because I have three classes and a discussion to go to. I hope I don't get lost along the way or something, that would suck butt. Alright I'm out to catch up on my episodes of House. I can't believe I missed the episode this week even though I caught up with the season premiere online. Must've just slipped my mind.

My quadmates are starting to get irritating. Just a wee bit. And only one of them.

Up up and away

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 01:50:02 GMT

Honestly have no idea why I waited this long to blog again. I mean it's not like I've exactly been busy (besides work). So yeah the past two weeks of work have been fine, although I can't say that I've completely enjoyed it. Having B there helps a lot. Anything is better than being there alone, which is pretty much horrible. My boss gave me a very expensive gift yesterday (my last day). I cannot believe he spent so much on it. Well it was a joint present from his wife and him. I know that they have some kind of Macy's platinum card that gives them a good discount but it's still A LOT of money. It was a Coach wallet/pocketbook! I'll have to post up a picture of it someday. So yeah. The last few days were great. I scored a free pair of Ray-Bans and another pair at a discount ($40! hella worth it.) The one I got free was the Wayfarer Folding Ray-Bans (like the ones in Risky Business, except they can fold up) and I am SOOOO in love with them. They're fucking awesome. And then the other one I got is the Jackie O style ones that are almost as awesome as the Wayfarers :D I'm soooo excited to get them hehehee.

So today I slept in, woke up and made myself some scrambled eggs and started my list of what to bring to Davis. It got pretty long but most of the stuff isn't too big so I'm pretty sure I won't be lugging around tons of things that I don't need. I REALLY want to have a TV in my dorm though because I don't want to miss the Emmy's and Heroes and all the other shows that I follow. I just hope I get it set up in time to watch everything hahaha. So I started packing and I'm about 1/3s through right now. Don't have all my clothes packed yet. I think I'm gonna do that last. I can't believe it's actually time. It has hit me that I'm leaving, but it stills feels kind of surreal. I hope all goes well. Some more shopping tomorow for some last minute things and I'm going to be allll set :D Woot woot!

Finalized and unfinalized things.

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 17:23:08 GMT

So today was my second pass at registration and I dropped and added a few classes. Here's my final schedule:

AAS010 - African American Culture & Society
LIN001 - Intro to Linguistics
SAS011 - California Geography
STA013 - Elementary Statistics

I know that most of my teachers are pretty cool, but Stats is a wildcard because it only says "The Faculty" like that scary movie where all the teachers were aliens or whatever. Anyhoo, I'm pretty happy with my schedule. MWF I start class at noon. Three classes on those days and an hour break in between each of them. And then Tues & Thurs I have one class in the morning at 9 and then I'm basically done unless I choose to go to the discussions which would be at night, always later than 5 on Wed Thur or Friday. So I'm content. I still wanted Film Studies or Animal Science but it conflicted with Stats and Linguistics, both of which are prereq classes for Comm majors. So I figure I can just take them later on.

Father is leaving back to Hong Kong today. Again, a bittersweet feeling. He's really been getting on my nerves while he was here, but he's still my dad. He's helped me realize things that I need to fix about myself and also things that I hate. I hate when people underestimate me. Also, I hate when I'm actually in pain and people don't believe me. I hate ostentatious/fake people. I hate when people hover. I also need to start being more assertive instead of passive. These are things I will try to work on in the future. We'll see how it goes.

Anyhoo, the other day when I saw the news of Stephanie Meyer postponing the Midnight Sun book because of the leak as featured news on the Yahoo page, I couldn't resist anymore. I had been trying not to read it so that when the book actually came out it would be the first time I laid my eyes on the editted, finished material. But I needed my Twilight fix and what was in the manuscript really helped. I am now, again, obsessed as ever. It got better for awhile but I am really crazy about Twilight. It's ridiculous, really.

I wish school would start soon. I'm excited now that I have the classes I want. Woot!

Jelly belly flop

Mon, 01 Sep 2008 21:41:17 GMT

Greetings. Back from the little family vacation. It was just a two-day northern California tour. Pretty boring stuff because the tour was designed for old, Chinese people. I didn't expect much going into it but yeah it was fine. We went to the Jelly Belly factory in Fairfield. It was less fun than I thought it would be ha. The jellybeans are really good though :) Then we went to the Budweiser factory which was also boring...I couldn't even get free beer. Boooo. Then afterwards...where did we go. Man I don't even remember. I think it was this salmon hatchery thing. Feeding the baby salmon was fun haha. Then we walked around at the state capitol building. I swear...our tour guide was ridiculous. I mean OK, better than not saying anything at all...but we literally stood there and had to listen to him talk for 25 minutes. When we were walking, he would talk. While he was driving...he would talk. While we were eating...HE WOULD FREAKING TALK!! He was nice, but he was getting on my damn nerves. Second day we went to the Oroville dam/lake and learned about it's history or w/e and we went goldpanning hehehe. Then back home. My parents thought the trip was fun, hah.

Once my dad leaves on the 4th, I'm going back to work for two weeks. Ugh, so not looking forward to it. But money always helps...so yeah. I'm really antsy for college to start. Especially watching everyone else starting to move in and go to class and do homework and stuff. A three month summer is actually WAY too long in my opinion. Some people would kill me for saying that but it's true! Two months is enough. Three months. A quarter of a year! I'm out, cause I'm exhausted. Almost done reading Eragon and then I'm gonna go straight into Eldest.

THE TWILIGHT MOVIE REALLY NEEDS TO HURRY UP AND COME OUT CAUSE I CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER FOR MORE TWILIGHT STUFF. SAME DEAL WITH THE MIDNIGHT SUN BOOK. HURRY UP!!!

Supernova!

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 22:16:21 GMT

Hola! So yeah SD, wasn't the best trip ever. Over it, don't feel like talking about it cause it'll just take hours to type up haha.

The housing stuff for Davis came out yesterday. I'm in Segundo, Regan Hall, Nova Building, 309A. No elevators and I'm on the third floor! Here's to stairmaster buns haha. I'm staying in a quad formation which is basically two rooms with a larger, shared living space in between them. I'm rooming with Joyce and I have two other quadmates. They found me on Facebook and they seem like very chill peoples. I'm pretty excited to be moving in now!!! I definitely don't have all my stuff ready yet, but I have a whole month so yeah. Moving in on the 21st of September and first day of class is four days after that.

Nothing much has been happening since I got back from SD. I took like 3.5 wks off of work basically for SD and for spending time with my dad before he leaves. He's leaving on the 4th, which is actually coming up pretty soon. Sometimes he gets on my nerves because he's so OCD and shit (even worse than me!) but of course I'm still glad he's here, he's still my dad.

I've been catching up on episodes of Dexter and Weeds. Online streaming is a godsend. Also I finally watched the finale of ABDC. Yayyyy SuperCr3w won! I definitely like them better than SoReal. My personal choice for the winner was Fanny Pak, though. They were my absolute FAVVVorites. I'm still a little mad they got voted off when they did. I think it should've been Fanny Pak and SuperCr3w in the end. Saw Pineapple Express when I was in SD, it was fan-fucking-tastic. So many laughs I can't even remember the jokes. Joke overload!

Familiar names.

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 07:52:48 GMT

So it's been two days since we've gotten to San diego and it's been a pretty good experience so far. It was a pretty rocky start because of some cost complications, but those are all figured out now, so yay. Right now I'm sitting in the hotel room watching the olympics and typing this out on my iPod. Yesterday we arrived early and couldn't check in yet so we dropped our stuff off in the lobby and headed towards the beach! It was a beach called Ocean Beach. Haha what biters!! It was very sunny and there were SOOOOO many people there it was crazy. Not used to that many people cause the Ocean Beach in SF is always freezing cold. There was a lot of seaweed washed up on the shore. When we got back to the hotel we took a dip in the hotel pool and grubbed at Sizzler's.

Today, we went to downtown San diego, specifically Horton Plaza. It's basically a huge, outdoor version of our Westfield mall in SF. I bought a new purse (purple, from Aldo), earrings, and two crochet shirts. I also have a new shirt that I got from a shop near the beach on the first day that says "Lifeguard: San Diego" which was only five bucks yay hahahh. Also I got an innertube and Tracy got a beach ball. Sooo fun! :)

We have plans for the next few days and I'm excited!!

It'll be as if I never existed...

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 07:04:33 GMT

It hasn't hit me yet that we're going to San Diego in less than a week. I think this summer is not shaping up to be what I hoped it would be. But then again, I didn't ever know what exactly I expected, so I can't say that it didn't meet my expectations. I just thought it would be somehow different that what it is now. I've settled. I'm either at work, at home, or rarely hanging out with friends. What else is there to do? I keep expecting something to jump out at me, something that I will want to do sooo badly. Something that will get me going and passionate. It just all seems so...empty and idle.

One thing that has helped me pass the time is this. I wake up and find myself excited to see what's in store for me today. It's the one thing that's still spontaneous. Hopefully this will last me until I find something else to fiddle with. I've created a few rules for myself regarding the completion of this journal, that will hopefully help it last longer. I will let my friends look at the book as much as they want, as long as they don't tell me what the instructions are on any of the pages. I'll let a few slip once in a while, but it's better this way. The other is that I will limit myself to one page (therefore, one activity) a day. So far it's proven to be quite inspiring. I'm also secretly hoping that it will help to relieve some of my freakish OCD tendencies. Ones that have been bordering on weirdness ever since my Dad arrived.

So I realized that lately I'm a lot more irritable. I don't know what it is, maybe just the stress of having my Dad around. I mean, don't get me wrong, it's great that he's back, but I have to make many sacrifices. For example, before he came along, my mom would be ok with me going out late, as long as I found a safe way to get back home. She put her trust in me and I never came home at unreasonable hours and made sure to call if there was any delay. It was like an unspoken communication, fueled by trust. Now father, although meaning well, doesn't exactly grasp this concept. He expects me to be home before dark every day, which is unreasonable because all of my friends have work until late at night. I barely get to see them! I've missed out on grilling their boyfriends, or at least watching their moves to see if I could read anything. I've missed out on birthday parties (which means missing out on meeting a whole set of new friends) and now I feel as if I'm "out of the loop." Also, father has a tendency to nitpick at every little thing that people around him do. I almost forgot how irritating it was after a few months of not seeing him. However, I've been really good with my self-imposed relaxation strategy. It's like in the movies, just take deep breaths. It's instantly calming, clears your head so you can think straight. I like it.

I've been reading a lot lately. I've made a mental note to look out for quotes that make me happy when I read them. When I find one I put it in my "Notes" in my iPod. This new ipod thing is quite useful. Unfortunately, I didn't remember this whole quote task while I was reading a very inspiring book, Randy Pausch's The Last Lecture. It has very good life advice that I meant to keep down somewhere. I'm just going to go ahead and say that there were too many to record anyway. Currently, I am going through the Twilight series. It's ridiculous how easily obsessed I can become with books that include teenage romance. The way that Stephanie Meyers describes the observations of internal conflict and random thought are mesmerizing. I went through the first book in about a day and a half and am currently taking a break from the second book. I've become so consumed in the story and characters that I feel the way that Bella does in the story. I stopped to eat dinner and the whole time I felt slightly depressed, although nowhere near as depressed as she was in the story. I'm hoping to finish the series soon, or else I'll faint of sleep deprivation. Once I start reading, it takes all the self-control I have to stop where I am and go to sleep. I am soooooo excited for the movie to come out, Edward looks quite dreamy, just as he is portrayed in the book.

Oh boy, this entry is lengthier than I anticipated. I guess I have a lot of things on my mind.

There will be girls across the nation who will eat this up

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 07:50:08 GMT

Having a job can be a negative or a positive thing. Obviously, the money aspect helps a lot, but it comes with a price of it's own. I was just thinking that I've been working A LOT this summer. So much so that I'm not getting to spend time with people that I really care about.

Father for instance. He came ALL the way from Hong Kong and there's not a moment that goes by where I don't feel guilty for working all the time or going out with friends and not spending it with him. He's having a hard enough time dealing with the car stuff, but he can't even spend time with his only child. He's leaving during the first week of September and the days are flying by pretty fast. Especially when you're going to work all the time and not doing much else.

Another thing is friends. I don't think that time spent hanging out with friends should be scheduled, but that's what it's come down to lately. Everyone has their own respective jobs and activities and significant others and I feel like it's a lot of work to be able to just hang out with someone. I don't like how everyone is so grown up now. I loved the days when everyone was equally bored and would just call each other up and decide to hang out. Nowadays, there's no spontaneity in spending time with friends. The blame is not on my friends, or on myself. I think that's just the way things are. That's why I'm hoping that the San Diego trip will be a last chance to spend time with people that I seriously won't be seeing a lot for the next few years. These are people that I care about and will always care about, I don't want to waste my last summer working away while I could be spending it with them.

Then again, on the flip side, money is not an easy thing to come by. I am going to be taking loans out to fund my college education and when I graduate, I plan to pay off the money that I owe as quickly as possible. It sucks that we were born in a time where it just so happens that college tuition and costs are at an all-time high. I think it's kind of unfair actually, but what can we do about it? I'm just glad to have the opportunity at all. I am so excited to start college that's its ridiculous, really.

On another note, I watched Bridget Jones's Diary and I thought it was fantastic. I loved the use of the Pride & Prejudice storyline. They even had Colin Firth! Aside from his swoon-worthy British accent, he actually isn't all that attractive. Same with Hugh Grant. I usually don't like Renee Zellwegger but I actually liked her in this movie. I also saw WALL-E and I thought that it was very entertaining. I liked that the whole movie was one big, fat eco-message. Might have been pushing it a little bit, but the movie as a whole was adorable. I hope to see Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2, American Teen, Pineapple Express, and Twilight.

P.S. Bike is fixed and cousin gave me her old rollerblades. Exercise, here I come!

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 00:48:24 GMT

So last night, right before I fell asleep, I had the PERFECT thing to post about. But as usual, I woke up this morning and I completely forgot what it was. Sadness. All I know is that it started with the word "about."

So lately:

• Like a lot of you, I saw The Dark Knight. I thoroughly enjoyed it, although I couldn't keep Heath's death out of my mind every time he was on the screen :( Other than that, the movie lived up to it's name and was very dark and gritty, just the way I like it. I've loved Christian Bale and his work ever since American Psycho and this movie was no exception. Maggie G. was eh. Aaron Eckhart was faboo, even though I don't like his cleft chin... Also, the gadgets and stuff were so effing sickkkkkk!
• I've been working my usual hours, which can get quite tiring. Wed - Sat. I think I've decided that after I come back from the SD trip, during those last two weeks of August, I'll only go into work if there are a lot of patients and whatnot. Otherwise, I'm going to take the time off to spend with my dad before he leaves during the first week of September.
• The SD trip is coming up soon and most things are falling into place. I'm pretty damn excited! Except for when I try to think about wth we're gonna do while we're there...I'm sure we'll figure something out haha.
• My bike is on it's way to being repaired. Once it is, I'm gonna try my best to be comfortable on it before I get to Davis b/c we all know that I'm gonna need that skill while I'm there.
• I haven't been shopping in a million years and I've decided that because of that, I deserve a splurge item. It's coming down to a really nice designer wallet, a peacoat with a hood, or the Clinique 3-Step facial system & Urban Decay eyeshadow primer. I think I'm leaning towards the peacoat, though.

That's about it for now, just felt like I should update since it's been more than a week since my last post. The summer is long, but passing by quickly. I want to take advantage of it!

I'm no superman.

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 23:22:14 GMT

Orientation was great! I met lots of fun people, mostly from Norcal, a few SoCal. There were like 4-5 people from out of state, and 3 or so international students! There was a suspicious lacking of Chinese people! So surprising..but I assume that it's because it's the College of L&S, and most of the Chinese people have like BioSci majors and whatnot. The dorms in Tercero, the Kearny & Laben halls, are HUGE! Well larger than I expected anyway. The food in the dining common is delicious, but I can see myself tiring of it soon. Not complaining though, runny fro-yo is tasty.

So freshman = last pick and that = suckass. Got my classes:

1) Atmospheric Science 010: Severe Weather (LOL, so random)
2) English 030B: Survey American Literature (...the dude told me there's lots of writing in this class. I might just drop it and pick whatever else is open during second pass. I want Animal Science!!!! or Film Studies haaay.)
3) Science & Society 011: California Geography (Meh.)
4) Statistics 013: Elementary Statistics (My one prep class for Comm major...ugh.)

I wanted to take Linguistics or Sociology or at least Comm 1/3, but since we're last pick all the good classes (like beer brewing, wine production, water in pop culture, etc. hahaah) are taken already. The scheduling system is very complicated, but I think I've gotten the hang of it so far, after enough class research. All my APs came in handy :D So my earliest class is at 9AM and the latest is at 7PM :( but that's only on Mondays. No class Tuesdays and afternoon classes for the rest of the days. It's pretty awesome. I am glad to be back home. It was so empty in the dorms & I love me some SF weather <3

Davis is hot hot hot!

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 18:23:28 GMT

So here I am, in Davis. Doing nothing.

I don't have to take any of the placement tests because yeah. I took AP Calc and got a passing grade (yayuhh) and then I passed the Chinese AP test too so no need to for the foriegn language test either. I don't plan on taking any Chem so no Chem placement either. I feel like i should be exploring or something, but its definitely way too hot to be outside for more than like 5-10 minutes.

I'm staying in the Tercero dorms, Kearny hall. The dorm room was WAYY bigger than I thought it would be! My roommate for these few days is a girl from Wash (what are the chances that two SF girls got paired together!). Also, the food is delicious! I'm trying not to eat too much. I don't think it'll be that much of a problem during the year because I get tired of food easily. They don't change the menu much so I think yeah. I'm gonna try and walk/bike as much as possible. This is assuming that my biking skills will be refined by the time school starts...

Ugh I'm such a slacker. Haven't learned how to bike or drive yet. Stupid me. I guess at least I learned how to swim already. I wanna go swimming here but no one else seems to have brought their swim suits. Except for those white girls... hahaha.

K I'm out. Lunch at 12 so maybe I'll go around and explore until then or something.

Away from you.

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 08:43:07 GMT

It's late and I have work tmr, so I'm gonna try to be quick.

Eurocup 2008 was delicious. The Spain boys were workin' it. Basically, Cesc Fabregas is my future husband. He's only 3 years older, it could work!

I've been M.I.A. lately. I'm in a funk. Slightly depressed kinda funk. I'm sure I'll be out of it soon, but I am definitely way too stressed. And it's the summer! No one should ever feel like this during the summer. I suppose it all started when my dad's car got totaled. It wasn't a very good start to my first summer in the US since 2001.

I haven't been doing much lately, just working and going out with my aunt and nephew who came from Hong Kong to visit. Father dearest still has me on lock-down, which means I haven't gone on as many late night escapades with the girls as I want. However, I am generally enjoying the summer. With the exception of all this planning. I used to like planning. Now, not so much. It feels great to get it done, but the process itself is very draining.

The SD trip is green-light right now, just have to get everyone to book their flights and hotels. We're getting there.

I realized ever since the Santa Cruz trip last winter break, that I don't know how to properly relax. I think I can only fully relax when I'm in a natural environment (e.g. the beach, lying in the grass on a sunny day, etc.) or at home watching a movie with family/friends.

I've decided that I'm going to stop working the week before I go on the San Diego trip. Either that or work less days afterwards because I want to spend more time with my dad. I've been taking his visit for granted. I don't think I've fully realized that he's going back to Hong Kong in September. It feels very far away but I know that with work and whatnot, it'll whizz by pretty quickly.

Sarah came to visit this past few days and it's been great. It's always a great time when she's around because we finally get everyone together to chill. I'm gonna go now, my eyes have gotten a full work-out today.

And it begins

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 20:55:21 GMT

The past few days have been quite eventful..first time in a long time that I went out everyday. I don't remember what I did on Thursday. Bowling on Friday left me with some sprained fingers :( My thumb wouldn't fit comfortably in the 7-lb. so I used the 9-lb. Sprained fingers or no sprained fingers, it was still mucho fun :D Saturday was work and then bonfire where we got kicked out by the police. Desert afterwards. All 20 of us packed in a small Asian desert place hahaha. Yesterday I was a tourist at Fisherman's Wharf with the aunt and nephew. Took lots of pictures and stuff, semi-fun. Then today I plan on treating father out to Sushi at Kitaro for Daddy day (mother, aunt, and nephew will tag along.) I was supposed to watch a movie w/ Jules today but I was on a bit of a time crunch to get home in time for dinner with the familia. Meh, we have the rest of the summer to watch movies.

Summer trip planning is coming along. Costs for SD beach house are really racking up...making me consider Hawai'i! Depends on total costs and such. I would probably chat with the parentals before deciding anything though. We'll see.

Last chances, burgundy balls, and fried bananas.

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 05:35:29 GMT

OMG OMG OMG!!!! I emailed Mr. Sullivan a few days ago inquiring about my grade because I was really worried that it was really crappy. He responded today....B!!!!!!! la;dfjal;skdjflas He said that I did well on the last test (ummm, sure...) and on the last chance test which apparently boosted me up...a lot. Anyways, I'm just glad I accomplished that *whew*. And I finally got an A in Econ (but it was just for the trimester) and my final semester grade was an 87% but that's the highest I've ever gotten in Econ! :D

OK. Hopefully that is the last you will ever hear and I will ever type of Lowell-ness. Well the schoolwork and grades anyway. The reminiscing of good times is always welcome.

So last entry..I tried to hold in the anger as long as I could but I ended up getting all pissy with my dad and we kind of talked it out. We're OK now, he's more understanding. I went bowling today with Julie, Lorna, Becky, Theresa, and AS. I was horrible in the beginning and then right when I was getting better it was over hahah. Afterwards Becktam, Lorny, Jules, and I went to Fune-Ya on Clement to eat sushi. The prices have definitely changed a lot...but the udon was deliciousss.

Tomorrow is work then bonfire, even though it's gonna be foggy and cold.

Aunt and nephew are here, they're lots and lots of fun. It still doesn't feel like summer to me. It'll kick in soon though, I'm sure.

I wanna meet David Beckham on June 18th at Macy's but I don't want to pay for $200's worth of underwear to do it. I wish I could just sneak in...

Pops likes to party poop

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 04:10:32 GMT

Long, therapeutic rant. Please disregard if you are in a festive mood.

My parents were late and they missed my entrance. I specifically told them to be there at 8:30 and get good seats, but they missed it anyways. Then he went and complained to me about how he couldn't take pictures because the camera had bad zoom. Well if you had come on time and gotten better seats, maybe that wouldn't be a problem.

Afterwards, I was waiting for everyone so I could get pictures and Dad is complaining about how there's so many people and you won't be able to find anyone and it's hot and blah blah blah. He complained so much I got fed up and just left without taking pictures. Whatever, I'm not even gonna try to bring that up again. He'll just get mad and me and tell me to drop it.

Dad is cramping my style sooo bad right now. At first I thought I'd be OK with not going to the after-grad party but I am fucking dying right now sitting at home like a fucking loser. Inside I am really pissed but I'm trying my hardest to contain it. My uncle treated me out to a graduation dinner and I am very thankful but my mind couldn't help but wander to all the fun that everyone else is having. I got so used to just being at all the get-togethers with my friends and it kills me to not be there right now. I hate having to hear about it afterwards and feel awkward and left out. I hate sitting at home reading when I could be making memories with my best friends. Memories that I will think back to when we're separated and in college.

At the same time, I want to respect my parents wishes. That is why I am trying so so so so so hard not to let it show that I'm really angry and disappointed. I know there are plenty of people who have parents that have been strict all their lives. They've probably never gotten to do things that they've wanted. I'm trying to keep that in mind and stay calm. Typing this helps. Nothing I can do about it now except get over it.

I hate how overbearing my dad is. He always thinks he knows what's best but he's just living in an age that's outdated. People change. Customs change. He wouldn't let me have a sleepover at a friend's house because "girls are supposed to stay at home. It's frowned upon for them to be at other people's houses." Are you serious right now? This is America. Get with the times.

I am trying to stay on his good side so that I'll get the green light for our summer trip down to San Diego for a week or so. I need to recruit someone to help me plan because I don't think I can handle this one all by myself with Dad breathing down my back the whole time. I've been trying to build brownie points with him, but I realized at dinner today that all my efforts were in vain and it would've been better if I had just went to all these events that I could've went to. Ones that I said I couldn't go to because I was building brownie points. I dropped the bomb that I was planning to go to SD for our summer trip and he gave me his signature "disappointed" look. I knew it would just go downhill from there. There is still a chance that he will let me go, but he'll never let me hear the end of it. I hate when people are passive aggressive. It's the worst kind of aggressiveness.

I also hate how he pretends like everything is alright and when someone brings something sensitive up, he just explodes. I've been trying to cut him some slack after what happened with the car. I know he hates being cooped up at home all day. I'm used to taking the bus and everything, but he's too prideful to do that. Without his car, he's essentially handicapped. I don't think that he has to extend that to me, however.

Another excuse I gave as to why I couldn't go to the grad party was that my auntie and little nephew. They are flying in from Hong Kong, and arriving tomorrow. My parents said it'd be an early flight and we'd have to go pick them up. I checked the flight time, they're arriving at 2:00PM. Yet another reason I could've gone.

You know, I don't even want to type this stuff anymore. It's getting to the point where I'm bringing up old stuff that I don't need to be reminded off. I'm sorry I'm so negative. Congrats, Lowell High School c/o '08.

Bye bye high school.

Sun, 08 Jun 2008 04:47:48 GMT

It so doesn't feel like school is over.

Work is getting mighty tedious. I'm just itching to get out and savor SF while I still can. I think I take our city for granted, it's pretty freakin' awesome. Uncle is bringing el bike over tmr, which means I can start ridingggg :D

I started my dorm shopping already. Shower caddy, bed sheets, shower cap... lol.

I'm pretty excited for Senior Picnic! I haven't been to McNear's Beach since 7th grade. I said I was swimming but I might change my mind depending on how many of my friends decide to join me.

Breakfast tmr with Fieon & Tracy who I haven't seen in waaaaaaay too long.

But that was when I ruled the world.

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 23:20:16 GMT

I am so freaking addicted to this new Coldplay song.

My uncle basically ruined the whole case and now we get NO NONE! NADA!!!!!! insurance money. Thank you, uncle. As if it weren't bad enough. Just because your memory is bad. I am SOOOOOO PISSED OFF right now. My dad was in a worse enough mood because he has to stay home all day and can't go to where ever it is he needs to go. Now my uncle has to go and ruin the little we had left. That $3500 would really have come in handy. ;alsdkfj;alsdfj hella money... LOST. I can't believe fate is so cruel.

Ever since my dad told me, I'm in a sour mood.

I just spent half an hour lint rolling my shirt because it calms me. I'm still pissed at my uncle, though.

I hate how everyone always assumes that I'm going to plan everything. All people can do nowadays is complain. Well if you're so unsatisfied, why don't you go effing plan it then? I do not always have the time to sit down for hours and make a full fledged plan so everyone will know what to do and when to do it. Ugh.

I wish the summer would come sooner. I don't wish that college would come sooner, because I'm going to miss my crazy friends.

Biggest wtf of my life.

Sat, 24 May 2008 13:20:32 GMT

I can't even begin to comprehend and believe what just happened.

At approximately 3am this morning, a drunk driver was leaving the parking lot of the supermarket across the street from our house and ran right into my dad's car, pushing it up onto the sidewalk. It hit it so hard that my dad's car hit our house and left a huge dent in the wall. The driver fled the scene. It was essentially a hit and run. My cousin took off in his car after them and actually caught up to them, but the police advised my cousin to just return home. The drunk driver left his front license plate in front of our house, which will make it much easier for the police to find him. Luckily, no one was hurt in this accident.

I am disgusted.
I am scared out of my mind.
I am horrified.
I am angry.
I am confused.

Confused as to how stupid someone has to be to even consider driving while intoxicated to his level. A worker at the supermarket across the street saw the whole thing unfold. Here is his account of the accident:

He was outside, smoking a cigarette when he heard a noisy car pull into the parking lot. He figured he should be safe and went into the market to watch. There were 2-3 people in the car. The one sitting in the passenger's side came out to buy a soda from a vending machine. He was holding a bottle of tequila in one hand. He returned to the car and they proceeded to swerve around out of the parking lot. While heading back towards the main street, they swerved out of control, slamming into my father's car. They then backed up into my uncle's van. Afterwards, they gassed it into my father's front end and drove off. A neighbor came out and got a quick glance of the color of the car. The worker at the market called 911 right away.

I was asleep and heard nothing. I am too deep of a sleeper, it's a horrible habit to have.

I am angry for somewhat shallow reasons. For the past four years, I have taken the bus to anywhere I needed to go, or have depended on the kindness of friends. My father is the only one who can drive in my family. He returned from Hong Kong to spend the summer with us. This ruined it. He was able to give me rides to school and to work. We were supposed to go to Serramonte today to get my Prom shoes. He just spent $120 fixing the air conditioning unit. We just filled the gas tank: $50. I am REALLY pissed off.

However, my parents and I were reflecting on the situation. If there had been no cars there to block the way, it is very likely that they could've just ran right into our house. Right into my parents room. We are just grateful that no one has been hurt.

I've been up since 4AM or so, but I don't think I'm going to be able to fall asleep. & I'm not going to work today.

Update. Here's a picture of the damage:

Busy weekend ahead.

Thu, 22 May 2008 03:07:06 GMT

Lots to do this Prom weekend!

Friday: Kermesse. Selling tickets at 6,7! Leave early and go home. Get eyebrows and maybe nails done. Back to school for the dance concert!

Saturday: Work. Get out early and go home. Shop with Jo, Tracy, maybe Becky at Serramonte for some f'ing shoes! Ugh, so last minute...

Sunday: Go to hotel room in the morn, do hair, get make-up done, put dress on, dinner, PARTAY!!!, ditch & run off with Jes, home sweet home.

Monday: Homework! Shop! Ethernet cord for laptop, new calculator, and deodorant o__o

Pineapple is officially my new favorite fruit.

People are taking this Econ Summit wayyyyy too seriously, for cereals.

The heat reminds me of Hong Kong.

Fri, 16 May 2008 19:18:13 GMT

So it's post-APs and I don't know what to do now. I feel like I should be studying or doing some kind of homework. I'm like in denial of that fact that I can finally relax. I don't think I know how to relax anymore after this year. I feel so stupid for taking so many APs and stressing myself out like that. Oh well, now that it's over with, I can see that it really wasn't that bad. A lot of us tend to psych ourselves out about APs when what you really should do is just get a good night's sleep and eat a good breakfast. Usually, if you don't understand the stuff by now, you're just not gonna remember it during the test. Last minute cramming is crap! I made a good decision starting my AP Calc studying a week early. That way I actually had a chance to learn some of the stuff that I fell asleep for :X Micro on the other hand. The multiple choice portion totally kicked my ass. All the stuff I tried to cram in last minute definitely didn't help at all. I just kept mixing up all the information.

Today is senior cut day. I came to school at REG and went to REG, and Calc. We didn't do much in that class. I got like two problems done. Then I just started reading The Picture of Dorian Gray because I was initially planning on going to English class, but Anna told me there was a sub. I was only going to go to that class because the discussions were pretty interesting and thought-provoking, but if it's a sub we're obviously not gonna do anything. So I'm here in the library, just typing this.

I bought my prom ticket at first. I hesistated for a few seconds before it because if you plan on bringing a guest you have to get the guest form in at the time of the purchase. Whatever, I'm going stag and I'm proud of it. Today after 11,12, Julie, Lorny, and I were supposed to go downtown to go shopping but Lorny didn't go to school today because she was feeling lethargic. Massive nosebleed yesterday and I'm sure the heat isn't helping her feel better either. :( I need to go and get myself some affordable strappy silver heels. Ugh, I was so set on wearing my black pumps to Prom too. I'd been breaking them in for a month now! >:|

I'm gonna try and get home early today. Pops said he's gonna finish teaching me how to drive -__-" I'm so slow! Technically it's not my fault cause no one in my house can teach me. My uncle used to teach me in his old crusty Honda Civic, but it was so crusty that he threw it out. It's in the junkyard somewhere now. Good riddance too because I swear, the acceleration on that thing is crap! Now my pops is gonna teach me in his '89 Maxima lol. Whatever, as long as it works. I'm not gonna be used to driving it though because it's so freaking long...

It's so hot in this damn computer lab. I like.